Leif - Earth Stone

[the_last]

[As soon as Leif chomps on the fruit, he will experience sudden disorientation, as if suddenly unfamiliar with being inside his body, perhaps not even knowing why he is there or who he is. It lasts for but a moment and then slowly fades... He will suddenly find himself in a place that seems unusually quiet and gray, as though the color were stolen but there remains just enough to suggest that things have been greatly subdued. There are also about three spots in the distance that seem to almost glow with gentle hues of color, soft and welcoming. Too bad, they seem much too far away to reach.

Within the gray is an expansive forest of every tree imaginable and dry, brittle grass that extends to mid-calf. Here and there, one might even spot some faded prints left upon the ground. The sky is equally gray, although not one cloud can be seen. But a dark mist seems to swirl around the forest, not too thick but clearly present.]

Comments

[karlsefni]

Either way, I'm doing what you want. [ picking up the knife and bringing it up—before bringing it back down slowly, wincing again. ]

[wouldntkilladragon]

All because that's the only way you deal with problems.

[But not moving to get away.]

[karlsefni]

Just what do you know? I don't deal with problems by stabbing them. I haven't killed in weeks—I haven't attacked anyone since I've arrived, and this entire time I haven't even mentioned hurting anything until you brought this stabbing shit up!

[ his grip on the knife tightens, ]

I've been listening. To Rider, to my teammates, to other people, I've been listening and I haven't lifted a finger against anyone! I could be fighting but I know my limits, I could be killing people but I don't need to do that here! I'm not fighting for my life here so there's no point in killing anyone, not unless there's a game where my team's life is in danger! You keep telling me it's the only way I do this and that but I haven't done any of it!

[wouldntkilladragon]

But that's what you want to do? Isn't it?

[karlsefni]

No! [ frustrated, making a strangled noise, and his voice strains. ] I don't have to, I don't want to. I had to before and I don't have to now. I'll do it if I have to but I'm not a fucking monster who thrives on killing.

[wouldntkilladragon]

Are you sure about that?

[karlsefni]

No one sane could love to kill.

[wouldntkilladragon]

When is a monster sane?

[karlsefni]

Never. And I'm not a monster.

[wouldntkilladragon]

So why am I here?

[karlsefni]

To annoy the shit out of me, apparently.

But I dunno, why are you here?

[wouldntkilladragon]

I mean on the ground.

[karlsefni]

Because you said something idiotic, so I hit you.

[wouldntkilladragon]

And the knife grabbing?

[karlsefni]

You wanna start calling every single thing I do my fault when you're the one who keeps telling me I've got to kill you?

[wouldntkilladragon]

Your actions are your own. So yeah, most everything is your fault.

[karlsefni]

Guess what: you're not dead yet. So I haven't done anything, so don't start accusing me of something I didn't do.

[wouldntkilladragon]

Is that because of you or because of the pain?

[karlsefni]

Pain won't stop me from killing you, you know.

Answer my question. Who are you?

[wouldntkilladragon]

Aaaand missing the point.

Who do you think?

[karlsefni]

Whether I'm in pain or not doesn't matter, I can still kill you. It's my own decision not to kill you, right now.

If I knew the answer to that, I wouldn't be asking you.

[wouldntkilladragon]

[Shaking his head.]

It's not that hard to figure it out.

[karlsefni]

[ you're underestimating my stupid ]

Fell? [ . . . why would a persona ask for someone to stab them tho ]

[wouldntkilladragon]

[Just gives a look.]

[karlsefni]

[ gives a look back ]